The News

29 Apr 2026 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Broken hearted, Calm, Daddy and I, daddy daughter conversations, Daddy Daughter Faith, Daddy's Daughter, Peace, The news, The Process, Vulnerable, Waiting, Wisdom, Worried Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

 Dear Gentle Readers!

I come into a still place of process. I come sharing that I do not want to be part of the trials and tribulations, a strong soldier list as part of being in the Army of the LORD. Take me out of the game, coach (not death), but this game. This part of the process… this lesson plan…this moment. Fast-forward me to the “finish work”, the “victory place”, the blessed place.”I don’t want the trials and tribulations!!!

I know you are wondering where this is coming from…. Well…. last week, my mom got the news that she had cancer, and this week we got the news of the status. So, on Monday morning, while my mom was in Birmingham, Alabama, and I was in Washington state, my best friend and my mom went to her first oncologist appointment. I sat in the bed with my husband…praying… crying… being cool on the outside…but having a whole panic attack with an overstimulated nervous system. I went through the worst of the worst thoughts in preparation to execute an action plan. I created the most chaotic situation that my heart could handle. Yes, I am a therapist, and I know none of this is healthy, but here I am doing the opposite of what I tell my clients to do… sue me… I am human…lol! Before this information, I got the news that a good friend of mine died. Her death affected so many people, paralyzed a lot of us, and just made me think… What do I need to do with my time here on the other. Fast-forward in my still process about the friend’s death, I get the news about my mom. Back to the story… So my mom calls me calmly, saying… they say I have a tumor on my uterus, and nodules on my lungs. She then gave the phone to my friend, who sneaked into the bathroom to say in a shaky voice, ” Drika, it’s bad! Baby, you have to come home”. I am like ok, tell me what’s going on (I was calm when I said it) as I had her on speaker phone with my husband next to me. She then tells me the details, and I say ok, I can’t come home by Friday. Y’all, it wasn’t that I couldn’t come home, because Daddy had shown out financially, it was that I didn’t want to come home. I want to be on the road home with my husband, enjoying the open space. Being a wife and making memories. I know that sounds selfish, but here I am allowing my only child’s syndrome to speak. Yes, I am going home, but the journey is overwhelming to my soul. This was not where I wanted to be. 

If you are new here, I apologize that this is your first read. For old readers, you know your girl will spiral out of control and then come back. I call it the David complex. You know, through his psalms, he will start with praise and worship and then go into his emotions and end with praise and worship. In the words of Vivan Green… “I am on an emotional rollercoaster.” But this news does not stop the reality of GOD’s healing. I literally just wrote about the wait and how I want a baby… Now I am writing about trusting GOD again!!! Begging GOD for the miracle of healing my mother, at the same time healing me. Looking to write about the testimony.  I forgot to tell you that for the past month or two I have been praying for wisdom…. MAN, this is such a test of that. 

Today I prepare for my flight home, tomorrow I arrive, Friday I get the clarification and treatment plan of the news. But as this is taking place I am still asking GOD for wisdom. Wisdom on how to be a daughter in the midst of her own healing. How to ask for help when I am usually Miss. Independent. How to be present and not predict what GOD is going to do and how I should respond. This news is drawing me to watch GOD with my eyes wide open. Yep, I need the confirming signs, wonders, miracles, reminders, and insight. Because this feels different. It feels out of my control, and it hurts, because the fear of this healing leading to death is a reality. But I was reminded in my spiraling that I know several people who have survived this journey… Who have are walking testimonies of  GOD’s healing power and grace… And that is my stand… GOD, if you DID it for them, you do it for my mom. Give me the wisdom to do and handle the process. 

My scripture while on this journey of process, wisdom, and trust is this: “Show me your faithful love this morning. I trust you. Show me what I should do.  I put my life in your hands.”~Psalms 143:8 ERV

I am sure I am not by myself. I know someone reading this has gotten some news that has shifted them into process mode and wants to catastrophize the situation to the point you are having internal panic attacks. But let’s take a deep breath and trust the process in the midst of the news. We can’t predict what GOD is about to do, but we can be assured of one thing… It will bring Him glory and work somehow, some way in our favor… Though the grief my hid the victory.

Prayer: Daddy, the news has us discombobulated, overwhelmed, and overstimulated in solution focus process. We want the victory ASAP. We want the miracle right now. We need to see your hand at work and your peace at play. We want to trust you, but it is hard when the news is heartbreaking, when the emotions are filled with weight, when everyone is looking for us to be the faith carriers. We are lost, we are hurt, we are broke, we are speechless, and honestly, we don’t know how to pray when it comes to this news. The reality of the results runs through our heads, and they do not look like the promise of your victory. Remind us through this journey that you are the author and finisher of everything, you have equipped us with everything we need to move forward, and this is not about us; it’s about you. In Jesus Name! AMEN

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Welcome to 2026

03 Jan 2026 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daddy and I, Daddy Daughter Faith, Daddy's Daughter, Daily Living, New Beginnings, New Year, Newness Tags: , , , , , , ,

Dear Reader,

If you are reading this, you might as well shout! You made it to another year.  (Cue shouting music). Lately, I’ve been noticing that many people still feel a sense of hopelessness, even during a new year. Today, during my quiet time, I read this scripture in 2 Corinthians 4:16: “So no wonder we don’t give up. For even though our outer person gradually wears out, our inner being is renewed every single day”.

After reading  this, I got this revelation:

I think hopelessness becomes strong as we end a year and start anew. It feels like a failure… that the conquer we are to be is lost somewhere, or doesn’t exist. But I think this is because our human nature wants to keep yesterday in today. Ok… let me bring clarity. We keep saying we surrender, we let go… but reality is…we just change the packaging of things. We feel like if we do enough tweaks and changes, it will make us feel better. Not realizing that we are not making room for the manifestation of GOD’S promise to do something new. He can’t do new with old. He is not in the business of refurbishing. New today is just that.  Something we have never experienced, no knowledge of, or awareness of how to move through without Him. I think that’s why He gives us new grace and mercy.  It’s an opportunity for us to trust and lean on Him.

Prayer: Daddy, help us to make room for your new by being ok with the fact that we don’t have to know or understand it to embrace it. Help us understand that trusting and leaning on you is all you need from us. We surrender our imperfections,  perfectionism, and doubt to you. You never see our mistakes and failures as we label them. You see them as opportunities for detours and recalculations to get us to your will, assignments, and perfect peace. In Jesus’ Name. Amen! 

I’m Tired of Church

30 Jul 2025 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Church, Daddy and I, Daddy's Daughter, Healed, Heart and Soul, Transparent, Truth Tags: , , , ,

This is not a Gentel Readers blog, this is a let’s talk about it and process it.

Now that you have my requirements for this blog let’s dive into this conversation, shall we.

So, I’m scrolling through IG and I see this Prophetic influencer talking about what another well known Christian influencer has said about her. She goes into a deep monologue about her issues with this Christian influencer. She shares her hurt, she speaks from a place of brokenness, and then she intentionally shares her “Prophetic Judgment “. Use starts off by saying… (The famous words) “GOD told me”…or “I heard the spirit of the Lord say”, Now, let me preference that this is not the first this person has done this.

Lately, this has been her M.O. and reading the comments is what really brought me to today’s topic… “I’m tired of Church”.

For the past year and a month I have been without a church home. I’ve visit several churches, went back to some old ones, did online, and even just not thought about it. In this space I realize how much tired I am of church.

Please, don’t get me wrong I love the biblical concept of church. I love fellowship, worshipping, exchanging amens, prayers, revelations and insight from the word we just heard; however, this feeling and capacity to do that in churches today is hard.

I know you want to know what happened with me and my last church. Well, pastor got burned out, due to the pandemic the church lost a lot of their congregation which caused higher debt, that lead to us losing the church.

Now, you got the background let’s dive into my process.

So, I grew up in church. I have always had some form of intentional fellowship in every church I went to. This fellowship can be the traditional kind, breaking bread and just talking. The spiritual kind, which usually included a small group. Or the flexibility kind, which is a combination of the two.

Lately, this lack of intentional fellowship has led me to the mindset of being tired of church along with the misuse of the influence, the lack of leadership accountability (see the beginning of blog), loss of church purposes, and the devaluing of gifts and titles. I want the church that seeks to move in a community centered fashion, while building bridges and tearing down walls.

I want the church looking for sick people, not the one judging those healed, healing, or in the process of moving towards healing. I don’t want the church that is quick to judge, I want the one quick to love. I want a church that doesn’t push their personal agenda and convictions on others or use it as a measurement of what righteousness looks like. I want a church that reflects the description of “the bride of Christ”.

Prayer: Daddy help us to not get tired of the place you call your bride. Help us with our church burnout, church frustrations, and church hurt. Remind us that the church building is not our place of negativity, but the people in it can be. Help us process our ability to forgive, heal, let go, move forward, learn, and hold on to your word, call, and purpose. In Jesus Name. Amen

They Watching

25 Jul 2025 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A Daughter's Heart, Daddy's Daughter, Encouragement, Soul Sessions, Speak to My Heart, Speak to My Soul, The Influence Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Great Day Gentel Readers!

So, today’s blog is brought you by the words “they are watching you”.

Over the the 4th of July holiday I ran into a person I went to college with. In our conversations I learned so much about him that I did not know. I was honored that he shared a personal testimony with me. During our exchange I told him about my own testimony. When I told him, his response was…. “Man, girl you spoke that thing into existence “. Now, I’m trying not to look shock as he hug me to congratulate me on the manifestation of the testimony.

I know you wondering, why were you shocked? Well, it is because I never knew he was watching me. I never knew he saw my struggles, the tears, the faith, and my desperation to trust the GOD process. It really blew my mind! I hold him in high regards. (I do not think he knows that). He was so sweet to me as a freshman and always made an effort to speak to me on campus no matter how big he got or who was around him.

As we part ways he asked me to keep him in my prayers (which I do) and told me how excited he was.

Meditating on that moment made me realize that their are people watching me. They are encouraged by the process of my testimony and truly will root for me when I share my wins.

I wonder how times how you missed the opportunity to encourage someone else because you think your testimony has no purpose, power, or value beyond you.

Today, I encourage you to consult with the Holy Spirit, and ask him to reveal to you who you need to share you testimony with.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for reminding us that the process and finish work of our testimony is not only for us, but for those watching us. Daddy continues to work in favor of those wondering is the process worth the work. Encourage those losing hope, desiring to give up, and overwhelmed by the discomfort of blind obedience. In Jesus’ Name. Amen!

2025 is Among Us

03 Jan 2025 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in #outthebox, New Season, New Year, Newness, Oh My Soul, Prayer, Purposed, The Beginning Tags: , , , , , , , , , ,

 Dear Readers,

You hear me say it every year… “I am going to do better”. Well, I have too many accountability partners to fail this year!

If you are new to this blog, welcome! If you are a faithful reader, thank you for being with me through the journey. Disclaimer, this is an imperfect blog. Yep, I have grammatical errors, properly misspelled words, and some thoughts that may seem unGODly. But what’s the trend…”WE Listen (read) and DON’T Judge”! (LOL)

Ok, now that the preliminaries are out way let’s talk about this year of 2025. So, I want to first say that this is going to be a year of “mind your business and drink your water”. If you didn’t know, now you do. This is a year of true focus not from a selfish standpoint, but one from where is GOD calling you. I think a lot of times we are minding our business, without action, without purpose, and without listening. We find ourselves so caught up in what we should be doing based on our own will that we forget about the will of GOD. Been there and done that so many times, I should be tired, but unfortunately, I find myself going back into the cycle.

 This year we will learn. We will take from the years past and apply the lessons, not the responses. We will do the uncomfortable things, with boldness, with grace, with joy, sometimes with tears in our eyes, and hesitation in our hearts. We will do the obedient things, trusting the plan and process of GOD. I am calling this year, the year of #outthebox. We will not do what we feel like we should be doing, or what fits the agenda of who we see ourselves to be. We will do things that make us grow with frustration, yet it births patience and peace. We will sow seeds of faith in the midst of doubt. We will meditate on joy in the midst of grief. I know these all sound like contradictions, but they aren’t. They are moments of training and reality. The reality is you will have doubt when you don’t know the outcome of the situation. You will grieve the feeling of no and rejection while finding joy in getting a bigger blessing. I mean who wants to let go of something that makes them feel good, to gain access to something they barely know if it will work. 2025 is about to be the year of “GOD you said you would, so I will too.” Listen, and read this out loud, IT WILL WORK if I COMPLETE MY PART. 

You praying to GOD to do something when maybe GOD is waiting on you to move something, do something, sit somewhere, and be still. “Faith without works”, is not about the action of faith, it’s about the obedience of your stillness sometimes. You think the work is action when the work could be surrender. As a matter of fact, the work is ALWAYS the action of surrender. GOD can’t get you what you need and ask for if you are filled and full of what you want, and won’t let go of it. You asking for healing when GOD needs your action of forgiveness. You can’t ask for wealth when you not sowing something… Maybe you are not at the place where your faith will allow you to sow 10%, but sowing something is better than sowing nothing. Let’s move beyond that maybe you struggle to say no, so GOD can trust you with his yes. The list can go on and on, but the point is you have to let GO of something to gain access to what you want to possess. 

In 2025 do me and yourself a favor, make room, let go, trust GOD, build community, sit still, become uncomfortable, surrender even if you go it handled, and tell your truth to DADDY before you do man. 

Prayer: Daddy this year is about to be different, not only because we speak and believe it, but because we understand that we must be different to get to the next level you have in store for us. We realize that surrendering is uncomfortable and out of our control. We realize that we are control freaks, and it hinders You from taking control of our lives and the situations we are praying about. Help us! Help us be still, help us be obedient not by force, but by choice, and help us see your will, purpose, and plan working for our good in the tough moments.  

In Jesus Name!

AMEN

Welcome to 2025 

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