Selfish Heart

28 Aug 2018 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A cry, Daddy and I, Daddy Daughter Faith, Daddy's Daughter, Dangerous Prayer, Legacy of A Daughter, Oh My Soul, Open Heart, Soul Detox, Soul Devotion, Soul Series, Transition, Transparency Tags: , , , ,

This has been a tough pill to swallow. Because this whole time I have made it my goal to pursue Daddy in a way I never pursue Him before. I feel so defeated and disappointed in myself. I feel like what is the use of the Christian journey if this is going to be the end result of my efforts of getting close to Daddy. But, here is the thing this is where the enemy wants me.  Question have you ever felt like where I am? Have you ever felt doubtful, hopeless, and discourage in your pursuit to seek Daddy? Have you ever felt like it wasn’t worth it? Can I tell you something that has really saved me from feeling guilty and unworthy of Daddy’s presence and love (because those are the emotions that I felt when I realize this was my heart), His grace and mercy is new daily!!! I know that seems so simple but not good enough. I know it seems like there should be more to help with a selfish heart. But after realizing how selfish I was.  I heard the Holy Spirit say ” His grace is sufficient.” ( 2 Corinthians 12:9).

How awesome is our Daddy, that He knew that one day we would make time to pray the prayer, asking him to search our hearts and finding out the selfishness that was in it… that He put a clause in place that would cover us. His grace covers a multitude of sins. (1 Peter 4:8)
In all of this, I never thought that I would feel free as I feel now. I am in a place where I know there are some root issues that I need to deal with. That I need to learn how to apply the fruits of the spirit in a life applicable way. That I have to love in spite of how I feel or what they did. Because Daddy first love me (1 John 4:19), and there is nothing greater than love. (1 Peter 4:8). That His joy is my strength (Psalms 28:8) and in Him can I only find peace. (2 Thessalonians 3:16). That long-suffering create perseverance (Matthew 24:13) and gentleness creates a place of forgiveness (Philippians 4:5).

Goodness creates confidence (Psalms 27:13), faith ties the fruits of the Spirit together creating boldness in you (2 Peter 1:5-7). Meekness creates the opportunity for you to gain an inheritance (Matthew 5:5) and self-control keeps you out of trouble (Proverbs 21:23).

Today I challenge us to not meditate on the selfishness of our hearts, but the fact that they can become selfless if we just apply the word of God to our lives.

Prayer:  Daddy, we come to say thank you that your grace is sufficient enough to cover the multitude of sins that our heart creates. Thank you for taking out the time to examine our hearts and not allow us to remain selfish. Thank you that you have allowed the fruits of the Spirit to come in and take over that we may be better sons and daughters. Helps us to remain in a place of faith and examination. That we will not get settled where we are, but we will grow in your light and remain selfless and not selfish. In JESUS  name! Amen

I Am Over IT!

22 Aug 2018 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Courage, Daddy and I, Daddy Daughter Faith, Daddy's Daughter, Daily Living, Mental Health, Purposed, Transition, Transparency, Transparent, Trusting Daddy Tags: , , , ,

Daddy, I am over it! The heartache, the frustration, the cycles, the relationships, the rollercoaster ride of emotions, the debt, the worry, the stress, the fear, the disappointment, the failures, setbacks, and setups. I AM OVER IT!!!

This is the conversation that I had a few days ago with Daddy as I sat in my living room crying and stressing over the bill collectors calling me, worrying about how I am going to pay, this and that. This is the mindset I had when I thought about the investment I poured into so many relationships and friendships. This is even the mindset I had when it came to church too. I was OVER IT!!!

Have you ever been there? To the point, you were over everything that affected your life in such a negative way? I mean to the point you even contemplated taking your life? Well, that was me. Yep, this is a transparent moment. One that I think plenty people have but are ashamed to admit. I mean who wants to be in the position of showing that they trust GOD and then turning around and saying life is not worth living anymore?

This is probably going to be a real transparent moment for me because I have not told anyone, but you, my readers this.  I have been keeping these things bottled, masked, and hidden. I mean I am a licensed therapist and minister, how does it sound and look for me to be speaking or thinking suicidal thoughts? But, there I was only a week ago in my living room trying to Netflix and chill and these were my thoughts.

But, guess what? The same things that I just told Daddy that I was over, are the same things that He was trying to use to get me to my next. UGH!! Don’t you hate it when Daddy uses the things you hate to get you to your next? How He uses issues, situations, circumstances, and failure to show you how to grow. To birth out new assignments, ideas, and gifts? How He takes your constant complaining and creates a moment for you to experience His glory and presence?

I hate it, but it’s in those same moments that I realize how much GOD is  I AM! I AM is over it, and I AM is in it. He takes over and uses His strength to create new beginnings for us to be in Him and over IT … The IT is us. We are the IT!!! I mean the IT is our…..will, word, and way.  It is our ability and desires to want to operate in our strength, mindset, and emotions.

But how do we get over the IT? By allowing Daddy to be it. I was reminded of the game tag. How the object of the game when being IT, is to tag as many people as you can before they get to the base. That’s what Daddy wants to do. He wants to tag as many of your problems before they get to the base of your mind and you feel defeated instead of victorious.  That’s why I John 5:4 says “for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith”.

So today do me a favor join me in playing a game of tag. Let your problems run but allow Daddy to be IT!

Prayer: Daddy, thank you that you have already told us that you will handle all that concerns us. We thank you that even when it seems like our problems are weighing us down to the point we want to give up on life, we will tag you and allow you to be it. You are the source of our strength and everything that we need to get through every moment of our lives. We thank you for being IT. In JESUS name. Amen!

Dangerous Prayer Part:2

08 Aug 2018 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daddy and I, Dangerous Prayer, Fearless, Freedom, GOD Trust, Oh My Soul, Open Heart, Soul Detox, Soul Devotion, Trusting Daddy Tags: , , , ,

Last week I talked about the dangerous prayer that I prayed concerning being a demand in the earth. This week I am going to talk about the most dangerous prayer that I have prayed. It has caused me to be all in my emotions and respond to life differently. Last week sometime I prayed this simple prayer found in Psalms 139:23 “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts”.

Yep, that’s the prayer that I prayed. Dangerous I know…but, I am sure some are wondering why it is so dangerous prayers? Well, it is dangerous for 5 reasons.

  1. It tells Daddy that you are ready for Him to have total control of the thing that you function from… your heart.
  2. You recognize that He knows, even the things that don’t line up with His word, will, and way.
  3. You ask Him to test you… Let me say that again… You are asking Daddy to test you. That means you are telling Him… Daddy, I may not be ready for the test, but because I trust you, test me.
  4. You are telling Daddy to help you identify the things that have caused you to become unfocused, doubtful, and fearful.
  5. You are asking Daddy to be a mind regulator for you and do surgery on your heart. 
If those things aren’t dangerous, I don’t know what is.  But, today can I encourage, motivate, and push you to make this a prayer that you pray. Not just once but daily. Because let’s be honest… When we remove things from our heart, we can add things back in it that aren’t good and line up in accordance to Daddy’s will for our lives. The prayer may be dangerous but it is effective and one that will cause you to grow.
 
Let’s pray…
 
Prayer:  Daddy, today we come to you praying this simple and effective prayer. Search us! Search our hearts. That all the brokenness in it is revealed to us, and we may come to a place of forgiveness for ourselves and others. Search our minds. That every thought that has caused us to not trust You fully is destroyed and uprooted, so we can have the mind of Christ. We thank you, Daddy, that we fully surrender all of us to you. In JESUS name…AMEN!!!

Demand In The Earth, Dangerous Prayers (Part 1)

01 Aug 2018 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daddy Daughter Faith, Daddy's Daughter, Dangerous Prayer, Demand, Equipped, Fearless, Oh My Soul, Purposed, Soul Devotion, Transparency Tags: , , ,

So, last week I told you about my transition and this week can I tell you about my dangerous prayer?

Ok, I know you are like a dangerous prayer… Yep, a prayer so dangerous that you are scared to even pray it because the consequences are so great and the process may feel unbearable. A prayer that comes with life-changing results and a stretch, tug, and pulls on your purpose and next. With all that being said and explained, let me tell you my dangerous prayer…

I was with one of my favorite sisters and she was on the phone with someone talking about the service that she offered through her company that she is the founder and CEO of.  (She is an international educator. She teaches all over the world and helps parents in and outside of the US become better educators for their children) As she continued her call I realize how much a demand my sister and her services were in the earth. I told her, “Sis you are truly a demand in the earth”…That’s when the dangerous prayer entered my spirit and came out my mouth… “Lord I want to be a demand in the earth”. I didn’t realize it was a dangerous prayer until three days later when I got an email saying… “Hey girl, I have been looking for you!” 72 hours after praying, GOD the manifestation of my words became my reality. So, I knew what I prayed had to be dangerous due to the quick turn around that took place.  A week after getting the email, I was on a call with another sister who told me, “Sis, I am glad you called me I need you to pray about your participation in a conference that I am having in October.” Look, let me tell you all something when I prayed that prayer, I was not really expecting results. OOOOOOO… Pause…Stop, back that up… “I said when I prayed the prayer I was not really expecting results”. How many times do we pray prayers without the expectation of seeing them manifest? I’ll wait, while you think of the many times you said prayers that you thought would take forever or never to manifest.

Let’s be real for a moment, we pray some prayers and expect GOD to do them right away, but there are times that we pray and before we say AMEN, we already thinking GOD ain’t about to do that for real.  But, we continue to pray the dangerous prayers not realizing the setup that we are creating for ourselves.

I know you are wondering what am I trying to tell you. Am I encouraging you to pray these dangerous prayers? Am I warning you about these dangerous prayers?  What am I telling you? I’m telling you both. I want to encourage you to pray these prayers, but be aware of what comes with them. Be ready to deal with the consequences or should I say the demand that will come with them. You will be the one that people seek out. You will be the missing piece of the puzzle. You will be the one that creates a demand on someone else. Do me a favor take time right now to pray your dangerous prayer (don’t read another line until you do). All it takes is one time, and that one time will cause you to pray more dangerous prayers.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for making us aware of the impact we can have on the earth if we are bold enough to pray dangerous prayers. Thank you for letting us know that we can be a demand in the earth, that you have purposed us to be a blessing to others, and create moments where you can move and breath life in situations. Thank you for allowing us to be what the earth needs for your glory. Thank that today we open our mouths with a heart of anticipation to speak the dangerous prayers that are needed for your victory to be seen. In JESUS name… AMEN!

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