The Perfect Goodbye

31 Dec 2017 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daddy and I, Encouragement, New Season, Speak to My Soul, Speaking Future, Thankful, The Beginning Tags: , , , ,

Today Daddy is kinda hard but easy at the same time. Today I say goodbye to 2017 and welcome 2018 with open arms! Today I come to you, asking your help, in helping me create the perfect goodbye. I feel like 2017 was the roller coaster ride that everyone talked about, but did not expect to be so bad. I mean I started the year with a positive attitude, embracing all changes, taking in all the blessings, and then it hit me. The truth of the year hit me and I realize that this roller coaster ride was not for me. But no matter how much I scream to get off it seemed like it started getting longer and longer to the point I just rode it out. I see that 2017 did not meet my expectations. It created moments where I did not see the reality of your love for me. I even got to the point where I just wanted it all to end. I mean what was 2017 really suppose to be about? Was it suppose to cause me to doubt you, limit my love for you, cause me to feel this moment of selflessness???? Was it suppose to make me cry to the point that my tears became dry? Was it suppose to disappointment this much? What was 2017 supposed to do for me?

Daughter 2017 was the year I gave you to trust me the most. This year was not about success, favor, or even the blessings. This year was about us, our relationship, and who I am to you in the truth of your reality. I understand that you weren’t prepared for all of the consequences of 2017. Whoever is? Who is ever prepared for what they do not know about? Who is ever prepared for the imperfections of my perfect moments? Who is ever prepared for my perfected timing when you are expecting a different box or presentation? Daddy, no one. Right so daughter I will help you with your perfect goodbye because my ways are always perfect and my thoughts towards you are always good. I will help you say goodbye, but before we leave can I help you embrace the hellos of 2017. Ok, Daddy. Say hello to your boldness, your strength, your new faith, your hope, and courage to come out of your comfort zone. Say hello to the leadership, the pruning, the gains, the love, and the letting go. Say hello to the things you said yes to and the things that got you the moments you were hoping for. Say hello to the new level of my presence and the growth you got to experience. Daddy, I never saw it like that. Well, daughter, it is hard to see my vision out of flesh eyes, but know that there is nothing in 2017 that I created just to make your life a question mark. I created every to bring you to this moment of goodbye. So let’s say goodbye to looking back, lacking wisdom, not trusting me, and your broken vision. Let’s say goodbye to the insane decisions, the people that left you empty, and the disappointments of your own decisions. Let’s say goodbye to what they say, expect, or even wanted from you. Let’s say goodbye to the old you! This is my perfect goodbye for you.   Daddy what a perfect goodbye it is.  Daughter, I leave you with this…  Become new in my son, and watch the old things pass away. (2Cor.5:17)

Prayer: Daddy help us to say goodbye to the things that we should not carry into 2018. Help us to embrace the tools produced in 2017, and let go of those things that we have held on for so long from the past years up until now. Let us not get caught in the resolutions of 2018 or the declarations that come with the new year, but let us get caught in your presence and wisdom. Let us grab hold to your word and make it part of our heart.  Let us not get caught up in the process but stand firm in the promises of you. We live this life to please you and hold fast to the things you have called us to. Let us embrace the stretching,  fall in love with your will, enjoy your love, hold on to your peace, and share your joy. Help us to remember we are made new in you through your son Christ Jesus, and that in him we can move forward. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

Trusting the GOD in You

30 Sep 2016 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daddy and I, Daily Living, Faith Series, GOD Trust, He will, Life Words, Speaking Future Tags: , , , ,

Good Morning Readers!!!

It’s been a while since I have blogged and I do apologize I hope that my time management will be better since I have now shift into a new position, which by the way is what this blog is about. So let me see if I can tell this story as short as possible so that I can get to the meat. About 6 months ago I start getting indirectly bullied by a co-worker that has been in the field for about 20 plus years. She felt the need to tell me how to do my job to others and criticize how I get my work done. It even got to the point that she was having meetings with my direct and indirect supervisor without me. I finally got feed up and meet with her and my indirect supervisor. After the meeting, I felt like maybe somethings should ease up, but unfortunately, that was not the case and because of this stress started to cause hair loss and health problems. (Sidebar: What do you do when the enemy comes after your glory? Answer will be given later) Well of course like any other person I started to pray for instructions, answers, and directions. I got it! It was time for me go and move towards something new. It was not hard to swallow it was just hard to deal with the process of applying for jobs and not hearing anything for months. But let me tell you that GOD is Jehavoha Jira.. he will provide in his perfect timing and give you the desires of your heart. So today is my last day at a job that I have worked at for 4 years. I have learned so much, gain so many relationships, and had the honor of working with one of best friends, and it still hasn’t hit me that I am leaving.   What does that have to do with Trusting the GOD in You?  All through this process, I have learned how to do one thing Proverbs 15:1 A soft answer turns away wrath. Because of my soft answers, speaking to the coworker that was bullying me, and being the example for those watching me, I learned how to trust the GOD in me. I learn that there are times GOD needs you to be the example even when you are going through, and even be a person of integrity even when you have the right to not be. To be in a position where show love when loving that person hurts. But the GOD in you says stand in trust me. Let me encourage someone right now. The enemy will present ways of escape that look like GOD’s but know that the illusion of his way will always get you back to where GOD told you to be in the first place. Stand still and watch GOD not only fight your battles but make your enemies your footstool. They will know who GOD is by the time you realize that victory has already been won on your behalf.

Prayer: Daddy trusting the GOD in me has been the most difficult thing to do in this season when it seems that everyone but me is getting the desires of their heart. Help me realize that your timing for me and my life is totally perfect and if I just stand then you show my enemies what victory looks like.  Daddy help me to trust your instructions, stand on your word, listen quickly and speak slowly. Help me to remain confident in this one thing that I will see the goodness of you. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

 

The Statement

13 May 2016 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Adoption, Chosen, Daddy and I, Daily Living, Life Words, Relentless Faith, Speaking Future, Thankful, Transparency Tags: , , , , , ,

Hey blog readers it’s been a while since I post something but while on facebook I ran across a memory note that bless me all over again.

The note is titled: THE STATEMENT

So in a conversation that I had with a sister on tonight she brought out something that I never thought about. So may time in our time of repentance we make the statement “GOD forgive me for the decisions that I MADE.” As she was praying for me, she stated “GOD allow my sister to move past the statement I MADE, because YOU are the author and finisher of our life story.” NOW maybe you didn’t get the revelation of the statement, so let me break it down. SHE said that I MADE, BUT YOU ARE THE AUTHOR AND FINISHER of OUR LIFE STORY. Which means that there is no such thing as a “MADE” Decision. Ok. GOD is the creator of all, and in the word He gives us free-will, but that doesn’t cancel the fact that He created the situation to the decisions that we make. These same decisions that either set us up or out. Ok. I’m sorry I’m about to lose it over here. GOD knows what decisions that we are going to make as well as the outcome of how it will play out. Let me just say this, in order to be a victor you must receive the victory of YOUR LIFE STORY!

This bless me all over again!!! I was deep before marriage..lol But the point of this is that we have to realize the statements we make will never change the course to our GOD destination. There are two examples that come to mind from the Bible that really confirm how the statement of our decisions will not change our GOD destination. Come here Jonah. He decided that he was not going to do what GOD called him to do and despite his attempt to escape the assignment by verbally speaking his plan, he still ended on the shore of his GOD destination. Come here Peter… You told JESUS you would not deny him but you did it several time and you curse… But look at you being the disciple you were called to be leading nations to Christ!!! WE can make decision but despite our decisions we will get to the GOD destination. The question remains will you take the 40 year or 40 day journey???

Prayer: Daddy today we come to you to say thank you for being the author and finisher of our life story. We realize that no matter what decisions we make you will get us to Your destination. We thank you for forgiving us in our bad decision making that manifest disobedience, and giving us the opportunity to reach our GOD destination in your grace and mercy. Daddy we shift towards a mindset of obedience and we thank you that no matter what statement we make the result is we win in you. Daddy help stay the course of  your will. Help us warn off distractions that cause your voice to be drowned by the weight of this world and the worries of this life. Remind us Daddy that you are the provider and everything we need can and will be found in you. Daddy help us make the right statements over our life and speak only what you have spoke to us. Help us trust you and help us with our faith in you when things don’t look like what we think they should look like. Remind us that your timing is perfect and what you have in store for us is greater than any thing that we could even image or think.  In JESUS Name! AMEN

Just Running Across My Mind

28 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Dear Future Husband Series, Encouragement, Faith Series, Speaking Future Tags: , ,

Dear Future Husband:

As I sit here thinking about you. I hear the Jill Scott song in my head..”Just Running Across My Mind.” The lyrics that stick out to me that describes you are…. ” I love seeing you walk into a room… across the room, out of the room… I just love what you do… Then I added my own lyrics…I love seeing you smile… I love that I motivate you… I love your passion… I love that you want to save the nations, but you are taking care of our family fi…rst. I love that you can be my personal superhero yet vulnerable enough to accept help.I am just in love with all of you.Totally grateful that you are willing to spend the rest of your life being in ministry with me.

Committed to You,

Your Pearl

Covering

27 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Dear Future Husband Series, Encouragement, Faith Series, My Position, Relationship, Speaking Future Tags: , , , , ,

Dear Future Husband:

There are no words in the world that can express my thank you. Thank you for the many times you filled up my car because I forgot to put gas in it on the was home. Thank you for making sure that dinner was ready after a long night at the office, even though you had a long day. Thank you for holding me when my friend came to visit me those cramps can be a pain….LOL! Thank you  for holding my hand when I gave birth to our children and the midnight runs you made when I was craving crazy things. Thank you for making me laugh when all I wanted to do is cry, because my efforts to save the world today failed. Thank you for speaking life when things seem dead and making sure I remember the promises of GOD. Thank you for being a great father to our children, providing stability, love, laughter, and memories to our home. But most importantly thank you for praying over me and watching over me when I am sleep. There are times that I wake up and it seems that your eyes are close, but then in a quite still voice I hear you praying for me. Asking the father to guide and cover me. I hear you thanking him for our marriage, family, and legacy. I hear you asking him to guide you in new way to love me and fall in love with me over and over again. It’s during these moments that my heart becomes full and I realize how great of a covering you are to me. I try not to cry… But tears start to form in my eyes and I too begin to speak to Daddy about us. I start crying out for your heart, asking Daddy to guide you to the next level in him in peace, while restoring your joy. I ask Daddy to heal all the broken pieces that you never speak of. That he pours out vision and goals beyond your hearts desire and that he guide you to love me and how I should love you in all areas of our marriage. Future  your covering means more to me next to GOD himself. Without you I feel so incomplete, but with you I am covered. You are the heart of GOD for me and to me in flesh. For than I am grateful.

With A Heart of Yes,

Your Heartbeat

Proud

23 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Dear Future Husband Series, Encouragement, Equipped, Legacy of A Daughter, Marriage, My Position, Relationship, Speaking Future Tags: , , , ,

Dear Future Husband:

You know the saying behind every great man is a great woman. I truly do not believe that. I believe beside every great man is a woman who has prayed from daily, took on his frustration when it became too much for him to burden. A woman who took her place while he was weak and needed to experience the healing of GOD. A woman that cried out to Daddy on his behalf when his words where lost. A woman who spoke life to him when he felt dead and valueless because the world, society, and even the things and people important to him told him he lost. A woman who saw him for what he was not for what he felt like. A woman willing to be whatever she needed to be in order for him to rise to greatness. So Dear Husband of mine, beside you is me. You other half, your completeness in Daddy, your soul mate, your heartbeat…. And though you were complete without me, you are whole with me.

Here for You,

Your Proudness

My Future

23 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Dear Future Husband Series, Legacy of A Daughter, Marriage, Relationship, Speaking Future Tags: , , , ,

About a couple weeks ago my little sister posted a note on her Facebook page to her future husband. It has been three years since I even was able to address a note to a husband and after three years I realizes it’s time to talk to him again. No I am not married, but it’s time to prepare my conversation with him again. As I was reading her note I heard the Holy Spirit say… write yours…. Where is yours? I realize that though I hope for a husband soon in my future, my conversations with him would be limited since I wouldn’t know where to start. So for the next week or so I will be writing my love notes to my future husband, wherever he may be. I realize that 2016 is a year of GOD expectation and can I tell you I am expecting Daddy to move since in 2015 I have really had to deal with total loses. I lose both my grandmothers, housing, and my car was totaled. When I tell you this has been a Daddy year it truly has been, because without his peace I would not know that my future exist… So take this journey with me as I prepare for my future husband. I spoke until the end of 2015 but I feel that this journey will turn into a lifestyle. So as we move into the next level of Daddy Daughter Conversations become aware that Daddy is preparing you for the assignment of your future. Faith is speaking into existence, the evidence that you hope to manifest in your favor.

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