Just Running Across My Mind

28 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Dear Future Husband Series, Encouragement, Faith Series, Speaking Future Tags: , ,

Dear Future Husband:

As I sit here thinking about you. I hear the Jill Scott song in my head..”Just Running Across My Mind.” The lyrics that stick out to me that describes you are…. ” I love seeing you walk into a room… across the room, out of the room… I just love what you do… Then I added my own lyrics…I love seeing you smile… I love that I motivate you… I love your passion… I love that you want to save the nations, but you are taking care of our family fi…rst. I love that you can be my personal superhero yet vulnerable enough to accept help.I am just in love with all of you.Totally grateful that you are willing to spend the rest of your life being in ministry with me.

Committed to You,

Your Pearl

Covering

27 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Dear Future Husband Series, Encouragement, Faith Series, My Position, Relationship, Speaking Future Tags: , , , , ,

Dear Future Husband:

There are no words in the world that can express my thank you. Thank you for the many times you filled up my car because I forgot to put gas in it on the was home. Thank you for making sure that dinner was ready after a long night at the office, even though you had a long day. Thank you for holding me when my friend came to visit me those cramps can be a pain….LOL! Thank you  for holding my hand when I gave birth to our children and the midnight runs you made when I was craving crazy things. Thank you for making me laugh when all I wanted to do is cry, because my efforts to save the world today failed. Thank you for speaking life when things seem dead and making sure I remember the promises of GOD. Thank you for being a great father to our children, providing stability, love, laughter, and memories to our home. But most importantly thank you for praying over me and watching over me when I am sleep. There are times that I wake up and it seems that your eyes are close, but then in a quite still voice I hear you praying for me. Asking the father to guide and cover me. I hear you thanking him for our marriage, family, and legacy. I hear you asking him to guide you in new way to love me and fall in love with me over and over again. It’s during these moments that my heart becomes full and I realize how great of a covering you are to me. I try not to cry… But tears start to form in my eyes and I too begin to speak to Daddy about us. I start crying out for your heart, asking Daddy to guide you to the next level in him in peace, while restoring your joy. I ask Daddy to heal all the broken pieces that you never speak of. That he pours out vision and goals beyond your hearts desire and that he guide you to love me and how I should love you in all areas of our marriage. Future  your covering means more to me next to GOD himself. Without you I feel so incomplete, but with you I am covered. You are the heart of GOD for me and to me in flesh. For than I am grateful.

With A Heart of Yes,

Your Heartbeat

Proud

23 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Dear Future Husband Series, Encouragement, Equipped, Legacy of A Daughter, Marriage, My Position, Relationship, Speaking Future Tags: , , , ,

Dear Future Husband:

You know the saying behind every great man is a great woman. I truly do not believe that. I believe beside every great man is a woman who has prayed from daily, took on his frustration when it became too much for him to burden. A woman who took her place while he was weak and needed to experience the healing of GOD. A woman that cried out to Daddy on his behalf when his words where lost. A woman who spoke life to him when he felt dead and valueless because the world, society, and even the things and people important to him told him he lost. A woman who saw him for what he was not for what he felt like. A woman willing to be whatever she needed to be in order for him to rise to greatness. So Dear Husband of mine, beside you is me. You other half, your completeness in Daddy, your soul mate, your heartbeat…. And though you were complete without me, you are whole with me.

Here for You,

Your Proudness

A Daughter’s Cry for Her Sister

23 Jul 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A cry, Daily Living, GOD Trust, Legacy of A Daughter, The Body of Christ Tags: , , , , , ,

Daddy my heart continues to be heavy as I see the news stories, the tweets, the facebook messages, the engine searches, and the constant coverage of the death of my soRHOr my sister… Sandra Bland. Daddy I look at the video and the hate for the officer continues to rise, the disappointment of being a woman rings in my mind, the frustration of being black and educated continues to overcome my heart; I think to myself  how can I forgive someone that took the life my sister, who took a simple moment of frustration as a moment for him to flex his authority. How can I allow this moment of history making, epic news be a moment for your glory without feeling some type of way that’s not negative. Daddy my sister is dead. A woman full of purpose, life, and voice. Your Daughter is gone at the hands of a man or even  men who saw her as a problem, when you saw her as a solution. But what hurts the most Daddy I would have done the same thing. I would have cooperated but I would have told the officer that I know my rights and authority as well. I know the routine, I know what authority he carries, but I have some authority as well. Daddy my heart screams for you, for this is not a burden this is a cry of pain, hurt, frustrating, angry, and lost not just for myself, but my sisters nationwide. How dare they devalue us Daddy! Did you not call us precious rubies? Did you not call us priceless? Did you not call us your heart? Do we not have your last name? Daddy I can’t wrap my mind around the thought of this act, the evidence of my sister’s death, the disappointment of a system that speak of equal justice, but shows only favor towards certain people. Daddy this event has turn my world and others upside down. How do we get pass this moment? How we progress towards better? What do we do? Where do we go? Who do we run to?

Daughter please calm down I have heard your heart and the heart of your sisters and my people when it comes to this situation. Know this…. your sister didn’t die in vain… My purpose will always remain and my glory will out shine the evilness of this world. Daughter my heart hurts for you and your sisters. I know what she meant to many of you. I know her impact in the earth. I knew that this would not be an easy thing to handle or even accept for any of you. I know that her family seeks justice, I know the heart of the officer and his co-workers. Daughter I know what happen to your sister and all I need you to do is trust me. Trust my justice it’s greater than the thoughts of what you think your justice could bring. Trust my heart, that I will be the one that heals you, your sisters, and her family. Trust my revenge, because it’s big and greater than any plan of revenge you could come up with. Trust my love, because even in chaos and unanswered questions, my love will bring clarity. Trust my peace, because it will surpass all your understanding. Trust my war plan, all I ask is that you put your war clothes on and show up for the battle, I will take care of the rest. Trust my ways, for  my ways are not like you ways. How I handle things will bring forth a better outcome and create a movement that man can’t silence.Trust my timing, in my timing I produce perfection, though it may seem that my timing is off, remember this… I am an on time GOD! This is what I need you to do Daughter… as my daughter worship. For what you fighting is not a man but the assignments, ambushes, and attacks of the enemy. He is seeking to kill and destroy what I have created and unfortunately daughter it’s starting in your family. Daughter don’t allow what they report to dictate how you should respond. I am giving you clear instructions on how to respond and that’s by standing still, worship, love, prayer, remain in my faith and faithful, and trust. When you do this and hold fast to what I promise you will see the manifestation  of me and the shifting from defeat to victory. Daughter stay encourage know that Daddy has this under control. I know that this may be painful, but all my processes come with pain and sacrifice, but know that it’s all worth it. I love you Daughter and know that I am always here waiting for you. I AM… I AM and that’s all you need to remember.

~Love you Daughter of Mine

Daddy

I Have Purpose

08 Jul 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daily Living, My Position Tags: ,

Daddy I was having a conversation with some friends about purpose. As we talked I realize none of us had a solid purpose. We even sat down and made a list of things we are passionate bout and though my list was full theirs were empty or only consist of one thing. Now daddy these are educated women who speak with great words and can do great things and there we were looking at their list of few things. And as I looked at my list I realize it had no purpose. Daddy my list has no purpose!!!What a sad outcome… I list  the accomplishment I want to do in my life while here on earth and I realize none of them have purpose…. they are items to create a check list of what the world expects from me…. but it did not have you in it. Daddy my list has no purpose…. how could I create a list with no purpose????  How could I feel that my list had purpose in the first place? Where did I lose my purpose? Have I lost the definition of purpose? Daddy what is perfect purpose? How does it look and where do I go to find it? Daughter the world has tainted your vision, your thinking,  and your ability to find your purpose. You think purpose are great accomplishment that change the world around you and the one you live in. That is so far from the truth. Purpose is found in me. And it’s not something you list, it’s the things I equipped you for. It’s my plan for you, the purpose I wake you up for. You have gotten caught up in listing things that you are not listening to the things I have planned for you. Every morning when you wake up I have already thought about you and planned your purpose…. but I wait for you to ask me this one question: “Daddy what do you have  purpose for me today?” The day you ask me that question is the day….I will give you your daily list of purpose. A list that changes daily, but the passion remains the same. The passion to do my will, to obey my word, to go my way. When you wrap yourself in that passion I will pour out your purpose. So dear daughter, are you ready to be drowned in my purpose for you? Overtaken by my passionate plan for you? Because I am ready to release it. I am ready to give you your perfect purpose.

With a loving heart for you,

Daddy

HELP!!!

02 Jul 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A cry, Daily Living, Equipped Tags: , ,

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord,

the Maker of heaven and earth (Ps121: 1-2NIV)
 
It amazes me that there are so many times in my life where I am like I need help. Whether it’s getting my life together, making life changing decisions, or just dealing with other people I always scream HELP!! And if you are like me, Daddy is the last person you go to when you need help. You may call a friend, sibling, parent, mentor, co-worker… Anybody but Daddy and why is this? The Psalmist ask the question where does my help come from then he answers:”It comes  from the LORD the maker of the heaven and earth.” Well that makes sense… Why are we asking for help from people who didn’t even create the situation or solution to what we need help with. Why are we on goggle or bing look for the answer or solution to the situation, when we can easily access the Father? Here is my answer to that question, because Daddy will give us an answer we don’t want to hear. When we ask for help many times we are in desperate need to get an answer or a resolution to the situation. We don’t want to deal with a process or a waiting period, waiting may be the thing we need help with so why give me the lesson on waiting? But that’s Daddy, he want’s us to learn the process of his help and this may mean waiting, or going through various steps. It may mean do something out of our comfort zone or even something we know nothing about. It may simple mean trusting him knowing that wherever he leads or tells us to do will get us to a place of being rescued. We must realize that when we seek help from anything or any one other than Daddy we are setting ourselves up for failure, because we are depending on something or someone that can’t create help. The are giving us help based on experience or due to the experience of other sources that have dealt with similar or same situations, but is is not accurate help.  Daddy supplies help that he may have to create or help that may not be visible to the the nature eye.
 
Prayer:  Daddy right now we need your help! We know that many times when we ask for help we seek the help of others or things, but today Daddy we seek your help. We lift our heads and eyes to heaven looking up to you, seeking your presence and ready to receive your wisdom. We surrender our cry for help to you. Daddy help us to wait, help us through the steps, help us through the process, give us the confidence to hold our heads up when we are feeling down. Help us to trust you more, increase our faith, open our hearts to receive your instructions, and help us to lean and depend on you and you alone.  Help us to hear your voice, help us to recognize your presence in difficult and chaotic times. Daddy today we scream HELP US DADDY!!! In Jesus Name. AMEN

The Three C’s

02 Jul 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A cry, Daily Living, Equipped Tags: , ,

Good Morning Daddy! It’s been a while since we had a breakfast date. So glad that you are always available to have breakfast with me no matter how I treat you with my time. (SMH). Daddy I have been thinking about some things that I thought were good and now that I look at them I see they weren’t what I thought. I hear you daughter please go on and speak your soul… So Daddy I was looking at my life. I mean really looking at my life and how it is going. I don’t feel the attacks of the enemy, things are flowing in my life like I desire, and I feel peace. Now Daddy I am thinking to myself this is a great thing I mean a peaceful thing. Then I ready a devotion that shock my peace. It said: “If you are at a place of rest, then you can guarantee that your life has become comfortable. If you are comfortable you can bet that you  have surely rest in the arms of contentment, and if you rest in contentment, then complacency is the wedding band you wear. If you are are experiencing these three Cs then rest assure you have cause yourself from not growing to another level. Never marry the three Cs just enjoy them in the moment of preparation for your new promotion.” Daddy I read this thought over and over again trying to figure out why I kept getting this negative vibe. Then it dawn on me… I am married to the three Cs and I am not looking to grow. I like this place of peace, I like knowing what’s going on, that I can control or at least be able to handle life now. Daddy I’m good. So I thought….Then I realize this is uncomfortable. Being comfortable is uncomfortable….Daddy how is this so. How can being comfortable, resting in peace, being secure that life is life, and being productive in my box, be bad?????? Daddy help me understand this….. Daughter it is truly simple. If you are comfortable where do we get the chance to have discussion like this. Comfort equals your will and leaves no room for my will, communicating with me, or even allow me to take you to another level of trust in our relationship. You begin to trust me where you want to trust me and you create a routine in our relationship. There is no room for my supernatural to manifest, I can’t perform an miracles in your life, or grant you greater favor. When you become content you limited the anointing on your life. You say to me, Daddy that’s enough I don’t want to be refreshed, revived, or restored, don’t make me over,  as a matter of fact the grace and mercy you give me daily is good enough, I don’t particularly care for wisdom or even the fact that you want to use me outside of what I have already experience… I think my testimony is great as it is. I don’t feel like I need to build the kingdom any more, I don’t mind being selfish, I know it’s not about me and someone is depending on me to get through this moment, but Daddy you can find someone else.  And daughter do you know that complacency is the key to an open door for the enemy. If you are complacent you say to me, Daddy thanks for the protection this is enough. I know you calm the storm in my life last time but I can handle this one on my own. You limit me  and our relationship. You will not be able to see how I can be Jehovah Jireh, (your provider)  Jehovah Nissi (your banner of victory), Jehovah Rapha (your healer),  and Jehovah Shalom (your peace)… You will never know me as “I AM.” You say to me that the salvation of my son is good enough for you and you want no more to do with me. Conversations like this one is not necessary because I  can just read your word and get the answers, I don’t need a relationship with you GOD. You say to me you don’t want the intimacy we share, you want me to be Lord and  you Servant, nothing more or nothing less. Although your flesh dwells in the assurance of comfort, lives in the presence of contentment, and embraces complacency; these three Cs are unhealthy for your spirit man. They cause your spirit man to die and your flesh to rise, they open the opportunity  for the enemy to do whatever to you, whenever he wants to, and it is a no to my will and a yes to yours. So Daughter how do you feel about comfort, contentment,and complacency? Daddy not so good… Now daughter, know that I want you to experience comfort, but in me, I want you to be content that I am…”I AM” and that’s greater than anything you could be, and complacent  in the fact that my son is the true access that you need to get to me, and my Holy Spirit has direct instructions for you to do the will that I desire for you daily. Daughter, now that you know what the three Cs can do to our relationship what do you choose? How comfortable, content, and complacent are you? Daddy I am not. I want to just dwell, rest, and be assure that you are my comfort, contentment, and I am secure that I will always be complacent with you…Because in reality there is no complacency in you… You are always creating something new. Daughter you are so right, and right now I’m about to create a new thing in you starting with your heart…. I love you and thank you for inviting me to breakfast, I always look forward to spending time with you. Hope we can do this more often.

Daddy

Lost Courage

01 Jul 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Equipped Tags: , ,

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”(Joshua 1:9 ESV)

As I was reading the above verse I heard the Holy Spirit say don’t lose courage. So many times we forget how valuable we are to Daddy that he has to command us back to our proper place. He tells Joshua “HAVE I NOT COMMANDED YOU?” Now to some that would be a question and even in this verse there is a question mark behind it. But it’s not really a questions it’s a reminder to us and Joshua…The reminder that Daddy has command over us and his command holds power not the actions, plans, or even the plots of the enemy or our fleshly response. After he reminds Joshua he give the “Do Not Be” instructions do not be frightened, do not be dismayed, and then he give us that reminder again “For the LORD your GOD  (Your Daddy) is with you wherever you go.” That’s it. DADDY is with you no matter what level, season, situation, circumstance, decision, movement, response, action, disappointment, hurt, or unknown DADDY, is there and he has give you the courage to respond and overcome whatever you may be going through. Never lose courage! You have something greater on your side that the world has no authority over. As we continue this journey call life know that you have been equipped with all the tools that you need to be success as sons and daughters of Daddy. There is nothing that can conquer us in the courage and presence of our Daddy.

Prayer: Daddy so many times we find ourselves lost in the lack of courage because all we see and feel is defeat. But Daddy you have reminded us that we are commanded by your words to be strong and courageous, not frightened or dismayed by anything or anyone. We rest in your commandment to have courage and we know that in you we win. We will never look at life the same. We will never take on the heart of the defeated, but he heart of the victor, rejoicing in the glory of you presence and the assurance of your love. We realize that in hopeless moments our response is not that of depression and defense, but that of surrendering. So Daddy we surrendering our discouraged moments to you, we let go of  our defeated moments, we say good-bye to our way and we lean only to the understanding of word and the wisdom of your ways. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

And There is More

29 Jun 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A cry, Encouragement Tags: ,

As I was reading my friend’s Latoya Tolbert’s blog “Is There More”  here on wordpress (got check it out: latoyatolbert.wordpress.com)  I got a revelation… I really do want more. As I reflect on all the events that have happen in the US I am convince and convicted of three things. As Christian we have become wavier in our faith as a representative of Christ. We have lost the aspect of GOD’s love towards the people of this world. As I hear the nation glorify the actions that are clearly against GOD’s will my heart weeps. I want to be in a place not of judgement, but of love. I want my reaction towards their actions to be of love and I want this desperately for the kingdom as well. I want to see the miracles of GOD manifest right before my eyes, and not be shaken by the things that I can’t control or even the weapons formed against me. I want the more. I want more of his presence, I want more of his love, more of his power, I want more of his word, wisdom, and understanding of my position as daughter. I want more. And can I declare there is more. There is more to GOD and today with a heart of vulnerability, I am convince I can’t settle, I can’t compromise, and I can’t allow anything to stop me from getting to the MORE. I want to encourage someone that feels like they don’t know how to get to more, or even those that feel that they are at more, but feel like the more they obtain has left or they don’t know how they achieve it… There is more and there is no need to settle without pursing the more. As I have grown in my intimate relationship with GOD I  realize that the more I experienced at 16 is not the more I am experiencing at 30 something. I realize that at 16 I was getting to know my identity in GOD at 30 I know my identity I am just trying to tap into the power, privilege, purpose, and potential of my identity. So today know there is more and don’t settle for the more you have, keep asking for more and more and more.

Prayer: Daddy thank you that in you there is always more. More love, more power, more purpose, more protection, more provision, more wisdom, more of what we need and all that we need. Today we give you a more praise. Not for what you can and have done for us, but a more praise to tell you thank for the more. Thank you for the more we didn’t even ask for, for the more grace, the more mercy, thank you for the more of your presence, your face, your time with us. Thank you for the more of our healing, the more of your restoring, the more of your rebuilding, the more of your revealing. Daddy today we give you more. More of us, more of our life, more of our time, more of our heart, more of our love, more of worship, and more of our praise. We thank you that today we declare we will never settle for any more levels of what we think more is to us. We will pursue more of you until you come back for us or we leave this earth. In JESUS name! AMEN!

I am More

23 Jun 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daily Living, My Position Tags: , ,

Romans 8:37 (ERV) But in all these troubles we have complete victory through God, who has shown his love for us. What can you not overcome? What holds you hostage as you go through life daily? Is it fear, worry, anxiety, lack, sickness, want, waiting, I can go on and on…But what is it? What has you in a place blind to the victory you have in Daddy’s love? Whatever it is you have to remind IT and yourself that you are more than a conqueror! You have victory in a battle that you don’t have to fight, you just have to show up, tell Daddy, and watch him do all the work. Don’t allow what you can’t control or feel like has you in bondage keep you from taking your rightful place as conqueror.

Prayer: Daddy right now we realize there are times in our lives that we have allowed what you have already conquered on our behalf to keep us hostage and bound in chains, but today Daddy we lay those things and more at your feet. No longer will we give up our victory to the things you have given us authority over. Today we take our rightful place as conquerors. We speak to that thing or things that hold us in a place of stagnate and we say no more! We speak life where death had crept in and we speak victory in the areas that say we have failed. In JESUS Name. AMEN

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