The Mask

It’s been a while since I blogged but promise I have really been in a position where I needed to but didn’t have the time to. Today’s blog is one of true transparency. I have really been wrestling with the thought of  writing this blog.. I means it’s not serious but it is very transparent when it comes to being in a position of growth. So here goes nothing. For past hummmmm… Maybe two months I have been a position where I really wanted a move of GOD in my life. I mean a move that would not only change my life but spill over into the lives of the people that are connected to me. In sum I wanted this kingdom move. Well it happen I mean really happen. I realize it had happen when I thought about how excited I was about graduating for the third time with my third degree (no I am not finish I need my doctoral degree…LOL). I was wondering why was I so happy about graduating again… Like overly excited. I was asking the Holy Spirit to reveal it to me and then it happen. The last time I was graduating I was in the mist of a separation with my husband which would end in divorce. I called him crying telling him it would mean the world to me for him to be at my graduation,I remember the conversation and how I found myself begging this man who I was still married to, to come to the most important day in my life at that moment but his attitude towards me was horrible. I also remember after leaving dinner with my family and he how he cussed me out from Anniston, AL to Birmingham, AL in front of her (almost a hour and a half straight) … I just remember that graduation being the worst, but I also remember the prayer I prayed. “Daddy if you just give me a second change that’s all I ask. I want to know what joy is again.” Those words rung in me ear and heart even after my divorce until I just let it go. Now fast forward three years later and degree number three and that prayer is coming true. Sidebar: Daddy will allow you to pray for a thing and just when you think he has forgotten about it, he shows up and out. Lesson: Prayer works just not in your timing and it will not come in the packaging you expect. Back to the regular scheduled blog…. So needless to say I got my second chance to enjoy the moment that I work so hard for, but not only that I realize how much Daddy loves us. I mean we are always saying he is a GOD of a second chance, we read where he gives second chances, but to experience the second chance is just amazing. But this is not the purpose of this blog just the foundation. The purpose of this blog is the aftermath of the second chance. I really have been seeking and asking Daddy to use me to show himself strong in my life. That He be the father, the provider, and the I AM that is talked about in the Bible. And he has forever one that I have prayed for. Here is my mask. I am happy that everyone I have prayed, poured into, and spoke purpose in. They have  received all that they need and more, but in the back of my head with my mask on I  am asking Daddy when do I get what I have been praying for. When do I get the overflow? When will it hit my house? When will he come? When can I leave and get the promotion? I am sure I am not by myself and if I am well I will just be. I wear this mask where I am super excited about the blessings of GOD on others not thinking DADDY WHEN. I smile when inside I am crying…. Asking DADDY what do I have to do to get it!!! Then I get tired of wearing my mask and I shut down and I have to have my selfish moment… Yeah it’s a process for me. Then I have to stop ignoring the Holy Spirit and conforming to the enemy’s mindset and take a bite out of the tree of life and say to myself… GIRL it is coming just keep praying for others and watch the blessing flow. But can I be real transparent that’s hard when they are getting the thing that you prayed for, for yourself… i.e. the husband, the promotion, the move, the increase, the favor,,,, I can go on and on…. But the situation get’s better when you realize how your ability to be selfless will paralyze your ability to selfish. The mask of asking When ME Daddy can overtake you if you do not place yourself in a position to really see what the father is trying to do through you to get you to your WHEN ME DADDY moment.

Prayer: Daddy help us to be so transparent with you that we never need to put on a mask in order to deal with growth, change, and praying for others. Help us to realize that your timing for our life is so perfect that we won’t even have time to focus on the “WHEN ME DADDY” moments. Daddy help us to release these moments through faith, joy,and trust that you have not forgotten about us. Daddy secure us in your yes and Amen and let us not forget the personal promises you have spoken to us. In Jesus Name! Amen

Sweet16

Well it’s that time of the year again. The time we talk about the new beginnings of a new year. The time were we sit and think about what we want to accomplish, speak into the atmosphere, and just really press towards. I am super excited about 2016! I mean it’s the year of the expectation of Daddy. I am really ready to see the promises of what Daddy’s YES and AMEN looks like aren’t you? Well with all this expectation and excitement can I talk to you about new beginnings and how to really look at 2016?

As children of Daddy we forget three things when it comes to our new beginnings in a new year. These things are: Last year’s lessons, Daddy will for us, and faith. Yep, these three things are things we forget to continue to incorporate in our new beginnings. Let’s talk about he first one “Last year’s lessons.” I don’t know about you but last year was the greatest lesson plan that I think Daddy could prepare for me. I lost my mother’s side of the family with disconnect due to the death of my grandmother, had to move out of the house I lived in for 15 years into an apartment with my mother, lost my daddy’s mother whom I was close with but never got the full closure I needed from her death, because my cousin got into an major accident on the way to funeral and I saw it all; and last I was in a major car accident in another state that left me with a totaled car. What lessons!?! Well let me tell you what I got from all of that which were great lessons for me to apply to 2016. Lesson 1. Never ever allow what you feel to predict your assignment. You are not your own, you are just a steward of the body you were given. This life you live is not about you and your glory, but about you completing the assignments that Daddy has give you the honor to carry out. Never allow how you feel to dictate how you respond to life and its situations no matter how much you feel it will bring productivity to the situation. Lesson 2. Have faith and stay faithful. Hum, I think I am about to cry about this lesson. Because it’s hard to have faith when your integrity is being drugged through the mud by family, you have so many life changes going on that you don’t know if you are coming or going, and you feel like you about to lose it, but you never do. But can I tell you if Daddy is faithful you can be faithful too. Because his track record in your life is greater than the moment of foolish and temporariness that is cause by others or yourself. Lesson 3. Always rest. I know this can be hard when you are looking for answers, solutions, and resolutions to life, but if you rest in the peace, love, and joy of GOD he will become your strength and the rest you thought you would never experience will be one that you desire more and more every day. Lesson 4. Change your vision. How you see things are not how things are actually seen. (that’s deep I know). What you see in your face doesn’t hold value to what Daddy is doing behind the scene. I am always reminded of the story where the prophet Elisha prayed that his servant’s eyes be open during a time of war. And Elisha prayed, “Open his eyes, Lord, so that he may see.” Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. (2Kings 6:17) It wasn’t until he prayed for the spiritual vision of his servant that he could see the true vision of victory. Always know that fight is rigged you win every time all you have to do is show up. Here is the final lesson. Lesson 5. Stand on the word of GOD. His words will not return to him without purpose. “so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.” (Isaiah 55:11)

So now you have the lessons you need to enjoy your new beginning apply them to your 2016 and watch Daddy do what he does best…manifest greatness!

Prayer: Daddy as we go into our new beginning help us to never forsake the lessons of our last year or the years before, let us always have the mentality of a student that seeks to learn more  and the characteristics of a child humble, but assured that there is nothing to big or hard for our daddy to do. Let us always remain in the place of faith, hope, and love, realizing that nothing is ever in our control only yours. Let us always speak life where death tries to rest, remaining assured that your word will not return to you void. But Daddy most importantly let us never take your grace and mercy for granted. Let us always be in the position were we realize tomorrow is never promise to us ; therefore, we will rest in today and allow you to take care of tomorrow as we complete what you have called us to and become great stewards of the the life you allow us to live, no matter what our expectations for it is.  In Jesus Name AMEN!

Daddy Daughter Conversations

This blog is not your ordinary blog. Yes I talk about GOD and my relationship with him, but this blog is not perfect and neither is the person writing it. The blog is filled with grammatical errors, slang, and a pure open heart between me and Daddy. This blog was developed as a result of me going through a life changing divorce and the continue life changes that I face throughout my life. My heart desire and passion is that someone reads this blog and move from being in a place religion with Daddy (going to church, praying, tithing, the Sunday routine, etc. out of obligation) into a relationship with Daddy (speaking to him daily, not seeing him as a judge, doing his will with joy, taking in his word with hope and security). So ready not with curiosity alone, but with a heart to really desire more of Daddy and taking your relationship with to the next level.

Enjoy

—-Daddy’s Daughter

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