Your Position

Hello Readers!!!

So if you all don’t know the I have been working on her thesis and feeling like I am getting no where! But I read the Arise5 (the prophetic journal based on the Hebrew calendar.. check it out at: http://www.arise5.com)  and I am getting my strength back. But I want to encourage you like I was encourage. We are in the month of Tammuz which is one that is filled with great things and I am so excited to see them manifest. There where six things that really stuck out that we must be aware of and make part of our lives. 1. This is the season where GOD is going to show you areas in your life that you need to adjust in order to remain in his will and stay on the path that he has called you to. 2. Light. This is the season where your light will need to shine bright and this will happen by accepting and taking on the glory of GOD. This is done by being in his presence through prayer and worship. Ask GOD to take your worship to another level that His glory will be just as real to other as it is to you. 3. Delay (this one is for me) This is the month to celebrate the delays in your life, and know that they are the confirmations of GOD’s preparation for your victory and promotion. 4. Choice.In this seasoning choosing to accept the positive in negative situations is crucial. You must speak the word in faith this season when it comes to negativity. Celebrate the positive in your life. I hope she doesn’t mind but I love the fact that friend  was able to celebrate the healing of her son’s heart but not only that, when he had to be place back on oxygen for a while she stayed positive by say “it’s just for a moment”. That’s how we must response to negativity “IT’S JUST FOR A MOMENT,” and if we declare the word of the LORD it will be just for a second. 5. Vulnerable… OOOOOOO I know some of us have a hard time with this word but this is necessary in this season. We can’t be super heroes in handling those moments that seem overwhelming in our own strength, it’s time that you tap into … Say it with me Circle of Influence which brings me to my last point….6. Relationships. It’s time to look at your circle to make sure it’s still healthy, productive, functioning, and balance. I know it’s heart and hard to prune and add to our circle but in this season it is necessary. Make sure your circle doesn’t get stale and that you are open to new relationships.

 

Prayer: Daddy we thank you that we are in a season where life, light, delay, choices, vulnerability, and relationships are key essentials to how we function in this season. WE thank you that we have life in you, and you give us life more abundantly as we stay on the path that you called us to. Help us with every assignment that we encounter daily, that you may get the glory in our actions. Helps us seek your face always that your presence will become and remain real to us and your glory may be the light that the world sees in us. Daddy help us accept, rejoice, and understand your delay is not a denial only a setup for your blessings. Help us Daddy to make the right choice in this season. That we speak your word during negative situations and stand on the promise of your positive outcome. Daddy help us become vulnerable in our times of needs that we seek out help when we need it the most as well as accept the help of others. Help us Daddy to not only be givers but receivers. Some of us are quick to give and slow to receive, help us find balance in both areas. Last Daddy gives us the strength and the heart to let go of the relationships that don’t grow us, that paralyze us in hurt, disappointment, unforgiveness, and discouragement. Help us make room for new relationships and give us the wisdom in who to let in and out of our lives. Help us not to see the pruning process as a place of pain , but one of growth and healing. In Jesus Name. Amen!

The Perfect Day

Today Daddy is a day I truly wish that I had a mate. Today the sun you created is shinning bright, the temperature is not too hot and the pollen is not at full blast that I can’t go outside and enjoy the day. But here I sit daydream of a person that doesn’t exist. To be in a position where when he gets off from work we meet up at one of the parks and walk around enjoy great conversation with each other, discussing our future together or even as individuals, and just taking in your great creation. Yet on this day I am inside talking to you about my thoughts. Daughter that sounds great and I hope you know that a day like today with your expectations is not that far away, but why can’t we have a day like that? Why can’t you take the time out and have a day with your Daddy. I want to tell you about the future plans I have for you. I want to enjoy a conversation of your heart, listening to what you desire, and I give you the instructions on how to get there. Daughter I know on a day like today you seek to have the companionship that I created you to have, but until that day comes, come have a day with me. I may not be there in a natural flesh body but my presence will always place you in a position where you will never feel alone. I can hold your hand and enjoy my creations with you. I really just want a day where we can enjoy our relationship. I know that your heart desires something more and daughter please hold fast to that desire. It is the desire of my plan, but until I get through preparing the moment come walk with me in the park. Come enjoy this day with me. Daddy that sounds great, but I can’t see your facial expressions as I discuss the craziness of my life, or hear you laugh at the jokes I try to tell, or even see how you look at me as I look at you. Daughter trust me I understand what you are saying and I have to say is give me the moment to give you the moment you so desire. Know that a day with me can just impacting as one with your mate. I can give you revelation about who I am through my Holy Spirit. I can heal you in just one conversation. I can change your life, create your world, and give you favor, and love on you all at the same time. Daddy I think I like that. I never thought that you could come and be a mate to me in that way. Thank you Daddy for clarity on taking our relationship tp a new level. Daughter you are welcome!!!

With great love and affection,

Your Daddy and true soulmate

What Do You Need?

I feel some kind of way and I don’t know why but in the way that I feel it seems like defeat is the only thing I can feel. I am so in a place where I need the supernatural move of GOD to be so real that I know that GOD is about to do something mind blowing.. Have you ever been there? In a place where you need Daddy to do something like RIGHT now?!? Like Daddy if you don’t move right now I know that I am going to lose it no matter how much I try to hold it together?!? Am I by myself? Well even if I am just in case one day you feel like this I want to share my wisdom.. HOLD ON!! YEP!! HOLD ON. Even when it doesn’t look like GOD is moving or even hearing you because all you do is sit in silence waiting on a response, he is doing something. But I am always reminded of the formula of GOD. IF you then he will. If you hold fast to the promise then he will manifest just what he said. IF you speak his word then he has no choice but to manifest it. IF you ask he has no choice but to give it to you. He can’t lie he is not a man, so you have to get to a place where you stop seeing him as such. I know you don’t, but I find myself doing it…I know that he is our GREAT GOD, but because of my relationship with him and how we operate I forget how great he is. I want him to come to my level so he can feel my pain, emotions, and feelings, when he is trying to get me to his level. The level of peace, joy, love, provision, wisdom, understand, and pure trust. But can I tell you that it can be difficult when you are in crisis. When you are in a place where you are like GOD if you don’t move I don’t know how to make something happen for me, but I am about to make something happen!!! If I am by myself again.. that’s fine but I know I am not! I just came to encourage you my readers and say.. HOLD FAST!!! What seems like a lifetime of waiting is only seconds to Daddy. What seems like stillness, is actually rapid movement to GOD. We will never be able to catch up with the timing of GOD, but we can always be in the right place to experience the benefits of his perfect timing.

Prayer: Daddy help us to hold on and hold fast to your word and promises. Help us to be in the position that we can experience the benefits of your perfect timing. Let us never become weary in our well doing that we lose focus of your presence and glory. Even in silence assure us that you are still listening and in stillness that you are still working for our good. We thank you that everything we lay at your feet, especially when we are in crisis. We thank you that what we lay at your feet is being worked on, worked through, completed, removed, destroyed, restored, and manifesting for our good. For your words says that your plans for us are great and they will manifest hope and a productive future for your glory. Daddy help us and let us remain in the vain of your glory. In JESUS NAME! AMEN

The Reality Is…

This post is going to be really different because it will be comprise of several things (Dear Future Husband, Transparency, and Daddy Daughter Conversation) For the last three months I have really been in the position of student and learning. About six months ago I ask GOD to start preparing me and surrounding me with the things that a wife would have to face, because I was the position where I really desire the Man of GOD I was designed for. In that prayer I had the opportunity to experience “Wife Lessons.” Let me tell you Wife lessons are hard. I mean patience and the ability to hear has been the biggest lesson and teacher during each lesson. I am overwhelm with the revelations that Daddy has given me through every teaching moment. But the biggest lesson came when I found myself in battle in my sleep in my room at night. (Here is me being Transparent) I would find myself fight demotic spirits and one looked like someone I knew. I contact someone I trust that had the spiritual wisdom that I needed to help me understand what was going on. In our conversation she told me that I needed to record every encounter, ask Daddy about it, and realize the pattern of when the attacks happen. Before she could tell me more.. I got the revelation of the why, when, and how they happen. She then told me to explore the root of those areas and when I tell you it didn’t take me long to reveal the root. The root came from suppressed insecurity, abandonment, rejection, and giving  my body away. Because every demotic attack was a man. I was overwhelm when I realize that what I thought I was over was really a suppressed moment exposed through these attacks. I did any and everything to make sure that I look like I had it all together, even it meant acting like certain things didn’t happen, but the reality is…. What I don’t deal with in the natural got exposed in the spiritual and it gave the enemy the permission to come in and do whatever he wanted to do with me. So with all that being said I had to ask Daddy to help me recall every moment that I felt abandon, rejected, given myself away, and let me not forget unforgiveness too which lead to my insecurity. Last night I had to go into my walk in closet and make it my altar calling out everything that the Holy Spirit brought to my mind. From being divorced to being in the position of feel like the only thing that I had to offer a man was my body. I was put on the surgical table to be cut on. I asked for a clean heart and blood transfusion along with freedom. I had to remember that I have freedom in Daddy and there is no chain too strong that can’t be broke by him. It’s amazing how suppressed things will find themselves exposed no matter how much you try to keep them in. Because I was able to be place on the altar of sacrifices I now have begun to feel the freedom that Daddy promises us. It’s awesome but it’s just a piece of what I can have and I plan on having in all areas of my life. (Dear  Future Husband)

Dear Future Husband:

I realize that every time I fuss at you for your short comings I am actually frustrated with my own suppressed emotions. The ones that I feel if I present them to you, you will see me in a light that is unpleasing to you. That you will no longer see your priceless jewel, but see broken pieces of colored glass. But after laying on Daddy’s altar and presenting my body on his surgical table, he cut me open and replace my heart with his and gave me a blood transfusion that cause me to regain joy and my place in him. No longer am I upset at my short comes and no longer am I striving towards perfection but excellence. I apologize for all the times I made you feel less than a man. I apologize for making you feel like you failed me. Know that there is nothing in this world that you can do to fail me unless you stop listening to Daddy. You are my rock, you are the natural representation of GOD’s love towards me. You are his heart in the flesh. Thank you for always being so patient and forgiving. I realize that this nothing new for you, that you were prepared for this very moment because Daddy told you it was coming. But that doesn’t meant that I can’t correct my actions. I thank you for being so great and open with me every step up the way. Today as Daddy has open my heart I expose my all to you. I realize that this should have been done before now, but you knew that I would come to you sooner than later with all of my brokenness healed. Thank you for being my heart beat when I didn’t see how to love you beyond my flaws. Thank you for being the covering that you were destine to be for me. The tears that I cry right now are not of hurt and frustration any more, but gratitude and joy. I am totally grateful that you know the value of us and me. That my price in your heart never devalues but continues to gain value. I love you so much.

With a healed heart,

Your Priceless Jewel

Prayer: Daddy this was the most difficult revelation about me that I have ever had to face in a while. To know that I was in a place of bondage thinking I was free. Daddy thank you for a husband who can pray for my brokenness and not walk away as though there is not hope. Thank you for a man who sees beyond my flaws and see my freedom. Father right now I expose my flaws, heart, and mind to you. Find all the areas of insecurities in my life and cover them in the blood and destroying them with your love. For you said in your word that I fearfully and wonderfully made in you. Daddy expose every areas of doubt that I have suppressed just to fake joy. You said that I should be anxious for nothing. That you have taken on every burden that I may experience your everlasting joy. Jesus you said that you came that I can have life and life more abundantly and I accept the abundance of  life today. Daddy take away the areas of rejection that I have kept a secrete for you said in your word that your plans for my life are good and perfect. That you knew me before I was even a thought in my mother’s womb. Daddy make me whole again. You said that you are my healer, that in you I can find rest and refuge. Daddy right now I ask that every broken area and piece of me be whole in you. Thank you that the blood of your son Jesus make me new in you and your grace covers me daily. Daddy thank you for being my father. For loving me in spite of. I thank you that you will never allow anything to harm me. I bind up every attack, assignment, and ambush of the enemy that is in the works, working, and thinking about manifesting in the name of Jesus and with his blood I send them all to the pit of hell. I thank you father that ever witch, war lock, demotic spirit, or imp is bound in the name of Jesus and sent to the pit of hell and every opening, window, door, gateway, foot hold, crack, and cranny that the enemy is trying to come through has been sealed with the blood of JESUS and that the freedom of you has been released. Thank you Daddy for freedom and the healing of self inflicted wounds. Daddy I rest in your freedom, I speak your joy, I represent your glory and I thank you for your peace. In JESUS NAME AMEN

The Position

Dear Future Husband:

There are times in my life where even when I need to be vulnerable I still end up being guarded. Not because I don’t trust you with me, but because I don’t want to be a burden to you when you already have the world, all your responsibilities, and our family on your shoulders. But today I realize something it’s not my place to judge what you can and can’t handle, nor is it my place to tell you what you need and don’t need on your plate. So I apologize for taking GOD’s authority and being out of line when it comes to your strength. You can handle any and ever thing when it comes to me, if you didn’t GOD would have not place us together. He knew that there would be days that your wife would be so overwhelm with emotions. That though she is about to break on the inside she smiles on the outside and you would have the power and gift to not only identify that she was in a place that she needed to talk but you will have the ability to love her to a place of healing. You would truly take off the duties of all other responsibilities just to cater to the needs of being a covering for your wife.  Thank you. I forget that I have a partner that can handle all of me and all my emotional moments, that he will know what to say and how to say it before I could voice anything about it. Thank you for being patient with me. I forget that I am your rib and a piece of you. That you take time to talk to Daddy about me…how to deal with me… how to reveal the secrets of my heart even when I feel like my heart desires are to great and  big for me to even handle.  But today as I sat and talk with about how I was feeling a peace came over me. It was no ordinary peace. It was a peace of GOD’s love and assurance and as you talk I heard the Holy Spirit say it’s ok he can handle your heart that’s who your Daddy put you with. I also heard him say that you are his missing piece he will never devalue who you are because it would be like him devaluing himself, so let go… cry if you need to, scream if you want to, but most importantly get it out so that when you leave his presence you will know the victory of your father and you will understand that your battle is already won. So today I say thank you!!! Thank for never changing your approach with me, for being patient with me, for allowing me to glow in the end, for allowing your love to cover me, for being selfless, for being you. Thank you for always encouraging me, and realizing that my attitude has nothing to do with you or your action, but the constant healing from past hurt. Thank you for being my covering, for allowing me to be totally naked in front of you, never seeing my vulnerability as weakness but as strength. 

With A grateful heart,

A covered wife

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