What Do You Need?

23 Mar 2016 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A cry, Daddy and I, GOD Trust, Open Heart, Transparency Tags: , , , ,

I feel some kind of way and I don’t know why but in the way that I feel it seems like defeat is the only thing I can feel. I am so in a place where I need the supernatural move of GOD to be so real that I know that GOD is about to do something mind blowing.. Have you ever been there? In a place where you need Daddy to do something like RIGHT now?!? Like Daddy if you don’t move right now I know that I am going to lose it no matter how much I try to hold it together?!? Am I by myself? Well even if I am just in case one day you feel like this I want to share my wisdom.. HOLD ON!! YEP!! HOLD ON. Even when it doesn’t look like GOD is moving or even hearing you because all you do is sit in silence waiting on a response, he is doing something. But I am always reminded of the formula of GOD. IF you then he will. If you hold fast to the promise then he will manifest just what he said. IF you speak his word then he has no choice but to manifest it. IF you ask he has no choice but to give it to you. He can’t lie he is not a man, so you have to get to a place where you stop seeing him as such. I know you don’t, but I find myself doing it…I know that he is our GREAT GOD, but because of my relationship with him and how we operate I forget how great he is. I want him to come to my level so he can feel my pain, emotions, and feelings, when he is trying to get me to his level. The level of peace, joy, love, provision, wisdom, understand, and pure trust. But can I tell you that it can be difficult when you are in crisis. When you are in a place where you are like GOD if you don’t move I don’t know how to make something happen for me, but I am about to make something happen!!! If I am by myself again.. that’s fine but I know I am not! I just came to encourage you my readers and say.. HOLD FAST!!! What seems like a lifetime of waiting is only seconds to Daddy. What seems like stillness, is actually rapid movement to GOD. We will never be able to catch up with the timing of GOD, but we can always be in the right place to experience the benefits of his perfect timing.

Prayer: Daddy help us to hold on and hold fast to your word and promises. Help us to be in the position that we can experience the benefits of your perfect timing. Let us never become weary in our well doing that we lose focus of your presence and glory. Even in silence assure us that you are still listening and in stillness that you are still working for our good. We thank you that everything we lay at your feet, especially when we are in crisis. We thank you that what we lay at your feet is being worked on, worked through, completed, removed, destroyed, restored, and manifesting for our good. For your words says that your plans for us are great and they will manifest hope and a productive future for your glory. Daddy help us and let us remain in the vain of your glory. In JESUS NAME! AMEN

The Mask

09 Mar 2016 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daddy and I, GOD Trust, Legacy of A Daughter, The Beginning, Transparency Tags: , ,

It’s been a while since I blogged but promise I have really been in a position where I needed to but didn’t have the time to. Today’s blog is one of true transparency. I have really been wrestling with the thought of  writing this blog.. I means it’s not serious but it is very transparent when it comes to being in a position of growth. So here goes nothing. For past hummmmm… Maybe two months I have been a position where I really wanted a move of GOD in my life. I mean a move that would not only change my life but spill over into the lives of the people that are connected to me. In sum I wanted this kingdom move. Well it happen I mean really happen. I realize it had happen when I thought about how excited I was about graduating for the third time with my third degree (no I am not finish I need my doctoral degree…LOL). I was wondering why was I so happy about graduating again… Like overly excited. I was asking the Holy Spirit to reveal it to me and then it happen. The last time I was graduating I was in the mist of a separation with my husband which would end in divorce. I called him crying telling him it would mean the world to me for him to be at my graduation,I remember the conversation and how I found myself begging this man who I was still married to, to come to the most important day in my life at that moment but his attitude towards me was horrible. I also remember after leaving dinner with my family and he how he cussed me out from Anniston, AL to Birmingham, AL in front of her (almost a hour and a half straight) … I just remember that graduation being the worst, but I also remember the prayer I prayed. “Daddy if you just give me a second change that’s all I ask. I want to know what joy is again.” Those words rung in me ear and heart even after my divorce until I just let it go. Now fast forward three years later and degree number three and that prayer is coming true. Sidebar: Daddy will allow you to pray for a thing and just when you think he has forgotten about it, he shows up and out. Lesson: Prayer works just not in your timing and it will not come in the packaging you expect. Back to the regular scheduled blog…. So needless to say I got my second chance to enjoy the moment that I work so hard for, but not only that I realize how much Daddy loves us. I mean we are always saying he is a GOD of a second chance, we read where he gives second chances, but to experience the second chance is just amazing. But this is not the purpose of this blog just the foundation. The purpose of this blog is the aftermath of the second chance. I really have been seeking and asking Daddy to use me to show himself strong in my life. That He be the father, the provider, and the I AM that is talked about in the Bible. And he has forever one that I have prayed for. Here is my mask. I am happy that everyone I have prayed, poured into, and spoke purpose in. They have  received all that they need and more, but in the back of my head with my mask on I  am asking Daddy when do I get what I have been praying for. When do I get the overflow? When will it hit my house? When will he come? When can I leave and get the promotion? I am sure I am not by myself and if I am well I will just be. I wear this mask where I am super excited about the blessings of GOD on others not thinking DADDY WHEN. I smile when inside I am crying…. Asking DADDY what do I have to do to get it!!! Then I get tired of wearing my mask and I shut down and I have to have my selfish moment… Yeah it’s a process for me. Then I have to stop ignoring the Holy Spirit and conforming to the enemy’s mindset and take a bite out of the tree of life and say to myself… GIRL it is coming just keep praying for others and watch the blessing flow. But can I be real transparent that’s hard when they are getting the thing that you prayed for, for yourself… i.e. the husband, the promotion, the move, the increase, the favor,,,, I can go on and on…. But the situation get’s better when you realize how your ability to be selfless will paralyze your ability to selfish. The mask of asking When ME Daddy can overtake you if you do not place yourself in a position to really see what the father is trying to do through you to get you to your WHEN ME DADDY moment.

Prayer: Daddy help us to be so transparent with you that we never need to put on a mask in order to deal with growth, change, and praying for others. Help us to realize that your timing for our life is so perfect that we won’t even have time to focus on the “WHEN ME DADDY” moments. Daddy help us to release these moments through faith, joy,and trust that you have not forgotten about us. Daddy secure us in your yes and Amen and let us not forget the personal promises you have spoken to us. In Jesus Name! Amen

Faith Is ….

02 Dec 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in Daily Living, Faith Series, GOD Trust, Legacy of A Daughter Tags: , , , ,

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Hebrews 11:1 | NIV

What a verse right!!! I mean it seems so easy to understand and comprehend that it should cause us to act in faith daily right?!? Well let’s look at the father of faith, the one who had so many descendants that he could not count them. The same man that had to wait 25 years just to see the promise of GOD to come true.  Let me back that up…25 years to wait on GOD, to manifest what he spoke !!! Let me give you the BCV (book, chapter, verse) on that In Genesis 12:1-4  The promise was given to Abraham in these verses were instructions on how to obtain this promise and what to do in his wait. Genesis 17:17, five chapters later, the promise is manifested and by this time Abraham is 100 years old.  So what do you do when you wait 25 years for a promise but by the time GOD manifest it you seem like you are unqualified for the promise you have been praying for? That’s deep.. Let me simplify that for you so you can get the revelation that I got. Abraham prayed to Daddy for a son, he believe and Daddy said to him I heard you and you will get that and more. You got that part? Ok So He waits 25 years for the YES to manifest from Daddy and after the Yes is manifested Abraham says to Daddy  I am no longer qualified for the prayer I prayed or even ready for the promise…

WOW!!! I am sorry if I lose it for a minute, but how many times have you told Daddy you are not ready for the one thing you have been praying for. You have spoke it in faith for the first five years of your prayer life but after years of speaking you give up and when it comes to pass you find yourself feeling unequipped for the blessing or the manifestation. WOW!!! That blows my mind because  we seek to want the blessings and the promises of GOD but we never want to be in the place of waiting.

So what is faith for real? Let’s take the scripture that I started the post with and break it down with the revelation that we get from the story of Abraham’s wait. So Hebrews 11:1 says: Now faith is. Let’s stop there. From these three words we can learn that faith is a very present thing that happen constantly. That means that faith has no expiration date. It means that faith is use today, yesterday, and forever more. Now, to the next part of that scripture… confidence in what we hope for Whew!! I think I am about to blow my own mind. In order to have faith you must have confidence not in the act of faith, but in  pursuit of faith as well as the Yes of GOD.  Let me make that clear for you… It simply means… I must have confidence that when I speak it in the present then my today, yesterday, and tomorrow will always be prepared for  manifestation of it even if I have to wait for it…. Now that’s deep. Let’s look at the last part of the scripture…. and assurance about what we do not see. Ok so if you are like me you like to see the things of GOD, and not just the words of GOD. .. It’s the error of our human nature right?!? Well in order to have true faith you must be assured about what we do not see.. this simply means that we must be in the position where we know what we have faith in is in line with what GOD has already said. So in summary faith is speaking back to Daddy what he has spoke to us with confidence and assurance that His word shall never return to him void no matter how long we have to wait for it.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the ability to have faith, exercise it, and pursue it with the heart of confidence not in us but in you. We love you Daddy and there is nothing like you. We seek to be your daughters and sons of faith yielding to the promises you have for us and learning the benefits of waiting. In Jesus Name Amen!

A Daughter’s Cry for Her Sister

23 Jul 2015 Leave a comment

by CEOTherapist22 in A cry, Daily Living, GOD Trust, Legacy of A Daughter, The Body of Christ Tags: , , , , , ,

Daddy my heart continues to be heavy as I see the news stories, the tweets, the facebook messages, the engine searches, and the constant coverage of the death of my soRHOr my sister… Sandra Bland. Daddy I look at the video and the hate for the officer continues to rise, the disappointment of being a woman rings in my mind, the frustration of being black and educated continues to overcome my heart; I think to myself  how can I forgive someone that took the life my sister, who took a simple moment of frustration as a moment for him to flex his authority. How can I allow this moment of history making, epic news be a moment for your glory without feeling some type of way that’s not negative. Daddy my sister is dead. A woman full of purpose, life, and voice. Your Daughter is gone at the hands of a man or even  men who saw her as a problem, when you saw her as a solution. But what hurts the most Daddy I would have done the same thing. I would have cooperated but I would have told the officer that I know my rights and authority as well. I know the routine, I know what authority he carries, but I have some authority as well. Daddy my heart screams for you, for this is not a burden this is a cry of pain, hurt, frustrating, angry, and lost not just for myself, but my sisters nationwide. How dare they devalue us Daddy! Did you not call us precious rubies? Did you not call us priceless? Did you not call us your heart? Do we not have your last name? Daddy I can’t wrap my mind around the thought of this act, the evidence of my sister’s death, the disappointment of a system that speak of equal justice, but shows only favor towards certain people. Daddy this event has turn my world and others upside down. How do we get pass this moment? How we progress towards better? What do we do? Where do we go? Who do we run to?

Daughter please calm down I have heard your heart and the heart of your sisters and my people when it comes to this situation. Know this…. your sister didn’t die in vain… My purpose will always remain and my glory will out shine the evilness of this world. Daughter my heart hurts for you and your sisters. I know what she meant to many of you. I know her impact in the earth. I knew that this would not be an easy thing to handle or even accept for any of you. I know that her family seeks justice, I know the heart of the officer and his co-workers. Daughter I know what happen to your sister and all I need you to do is trust me. Trust my justice it’s greater than the thoughts of what you think your justice could bring. Trust my heart, that I will be the one that heals you, your sisters, and her family. Trust my revenge, because it’s big and greater than any plan of revenge you could come up with. Trust my love, because even in chaos and unanswered questions, my love will bring clarity. Trust my peace, because it will surpass all your understanding. Trust my war plan, all I ask is that you put your war clothes on and show up for the battle, I will take care of the rest. Trust my ways, for  my ways are not like you ways. How I handle things will bring forth a better outcome and create a movement that man can’t silence.Trust my timing, in my timing I produce perfection, though it may seem that my timing is off, remember this… I am an on time GOD! This is what I need you to do Daughter… as my daughter worship. For what you fighting is not a man but the assignments, ambushes, and attacks of the enemy. He is seeking to kill and destroy what I have created and unfortunately daughter it’s starting in your family. Daughter don’t allow what they report to dictate how you should respond. I am giving you clear instructions on how to respond and that’s by standing still, worship, love, prayer, remain in my faith and faithful, and trust. When you do this and hold fast to what I promise you will see the manifestation  of me and the shifting from defeat to victory. Daughter stay encourage know that Daddy has this under control. I know that this may be painful, but all my processes come with pain and sacrifice, but know that it’s all worth it. I love you Daughter and know that I am always here waiting for you. I AM… I AM and that’s all you need to remember.

~Love you Daughter of Mine

Daddy

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